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11.04.25 an update

howdy!

Been a while (when hasn't it). What's been happening? I hope you're well. For myself: some big changes, lately. The fatigue is so much more manageable now, compared to last year. Can't pinpoint anything in particular for the shift, but thank god. Also some other big life changes recently that deserve a bit more courtesy than presentation in a blog post. Going through the fun process of unlearning shame and cultivating a life I feel at home in. Parts have been rough and parts have been joyous, has been life. I think another post to be had about that.
But today I wanted to have an itty-bitty talk about the website, and some reflections:

Writchal happened! (quite a few months ago, now):

oughuuu community and making is so wonderful. genuinely think everybody should be super proud of the cumulative effort, all the beautiful things people made.
Very much enjoyed making (even if i’ve realised writing isn’t super my thing), and though the second half of the year absolutely had less entries, when I found the time I found myself surprised with what I could make. That was really nice.
I think, since most days I struggled to find something to be excited about, I defaulted to personal diary-style entries. Writing those were quite nice, but also realising the importance of being excited about what you make.
Articulation alone, and especially in writing (creative/otherwise), is something I find difficult to approach. Have learned that I’m a bit embarrassed by that. Something I’m working through.
With that said, some of it was, dare I say, cringe

I have made the decision to  some entries, some blog posts. Have had some internal pushback around this idea because unfiltered expression is a precious gem.. but ultimately there were a few entries I wasn’t confident about putting up at the time and still feel the same now. Kinda related: was not in a super good place last year, and can see shame about working through it coming through in my writing; that isn’t necessarily something I feel particularly like keeping a reminder of.

I think if this website is something I want to maintain going forward, I'd like to be able to okay with the Self I'm putting up here. Some parts of me that have been present for a while need to be let go. So, with love and understanding, I'm doing so. Get outta here. Still keeping up plenty of my rubbish writing though :P commented out posts will still b readable if you really want in the html still.

I’ve decided to take off the "media diary" page. No way I was keeping that up alongside my physical journal. I’ve moved some bits to the home page - I’ll be updating the “watching now” and “to consume” lists every now and then, might add some cuter styling than what it currently has.

future of the website, art, what now?

I have been making art lately (woo!), it’s nice having that in my routine. One of few things has been the decision with Laurr to fill a sketchbook page every day. That’s been a lovely little way to keep the art/expression muscle pumping through the joys of full-time schedules. (gimme a buzz if you wanna join our little groupchat) Making shit art is has been feeling quite easy at the moment, it’s lowered the bar to entry, given the opportunity to jump into ideas easier.
So uh. What now? What's happening? I'm not really sure. Initially I was planning on ending this by saying something about leaving the website be, returning to it when I can. But I've realised upon all the reflection that I'd like to keep posting here (bold). Put some more of my silly self up.

I'm not super sure what that looks like at the moment.

The more things I put here, the homier it feels. I like that feeling. But I don't have many things to put here for now. I will always be updating the birds list, hopefully always making art, but I don’t know if I’ll be uploading every single thing here. No promises are to be made. Maybe I’ll do a sketch dump every few weeks, keep writing blog posts, keep making bigger things like I've been meaning to. But like, I do have a life I'm living. sometimes it's a bit hard to shift around one of five priorities I can have at any given time.

for now: the vague notion. As I'm posting this I'm messing with a bunch of CSS and you don't need to look far to find the site unfinished and ugly as it is. This is going to be the first project, a website redesign, hopefully something to get the motivation going. Hopefully see you soon. May it b easy x